We've all been resistant to stepping out in faith. We've all let fear hold us back.
On this blog you'll find real life revelations and stories from an imperfect woman, wife, mother, and friend who lives with a daily desire to experience healing for where I've missed the mark, joy where I've felt lonely, to be fulfilled where I've felt without, and ultimately live the abundant and secure life that Christ has called me to. I want to live fearlessly for my God...trust in Him fully...and do what he's asked me without hesitation . I know I'm not alone and my hope is we can walk together, overcome our strongholds, and embrace a life unafraid as we walk with our Lord.


Tuesday, July 12, 2011

3 MORE DAYS!

Well, here I am! 3 days till the wedding and pretty much finished with all of my duties and not to mention I am sitting here waiting on my future hubby to walk through the door :)

I am actually very tired for once and this is the night I actually have to stay awake, haha go figure! But who wouldn't want to stay awake to greet their man at the door when you have not seen him in 2 weeks and you get to marry him in 3 days! I am seriously so excited! I have almost reached the point of being speechless about the upcoming days.

Honestly, I feel as if I am living in a dream. Or like I am planning and doing all this work for someone else. It is funny because every time I am in a wedding and I watch the bride put on their pretty wedding dress I can not imagine myself in that place. I have never imagined that it was possible for it to actually be me. It is a picture, a feeling, a reality, I have yet to grasp even in watching other people go before me. But it is true and I really am getting married and it really is going to be awesome. I already feel the sadness of when the day will be over. I know that I will always long to relive it. But I can not be sad about that now because I still have a whole wedding day and 2 days leading up to it to soak in and enjoy!

I am officially ready to sit back and relax, I know I said I was going to start doing that on Monday but that did not end up being the case, although I did lay out for about 2 hours yesterday. But good news, my maid of honor and most wonderful cousin Lenza arrived today and she will be able to kinda take over all that is left in order to allow Nic and I to venture out and relax. Tomorrow night we are going on our last date as a unmarried couple. I can not wait to tell you about it!

But I am going to get a few more things done and continue to wait for Nic. He is only about 30 minutes away :)

I love you all so much! Your excitement and hype for the wedding has blessed me so much and has increased my own excitement for the big day! What a blessing for you all to be excited too!

Good Night!
Kira Vithalani

Sunday, July 10, 2011

4 days to Go...

"Marriage is about nakedness, exposure, defenselessness, and the very extremeties of intimacy. It is about simple unadorned truth between two human beings, truth at all levels and at all costs, and it does not care what pain or inconvience must be endured in order for the habit of truth to take root, to be watered, and to grow into maturity. Marriage is a cacrament of openess, of personal knowledge, the supreme means provided by God for people to come to know one another." - Mike Mason, The Mystery of Marriage


I know...this quote is intense. A lot of time what scares people most about marriage is infact shown to be the most beautiful part of it. The knowing that some one else will know you more than anyone ever has, they will see every flaw, and they will see every hidden dream. You become one with someone else and in a marriage it is no longer just you but the two of you, forever. It is a lot to swallow and it is hard to know if giving up your independence, secretcy and privacy is worth spending your life with another person until death do you part. Although it seems scary, I see it as the most beautiful part of marriage. What I look forward to most. Laying myself down and picking up a life that includes not only myself but the man I love the most. To walk together...fearless of what the other might found out about me, beleiving and knowing in faith....he will love me anyways. What a sweet picture of Christ. I know I am not perfect but in the eyes of my future husband none of that matters. I will mess up and so will he. He has secrets and so do I. We have so much to learn about each other and in 4 days we get to truly lay our selves down, pick up togetherness, and enter into this journey called marriage. Call me gushy, call me dramatic, call me whatever you like, but I chose to see marriage as Christ see's it. I choose to base my model not off of any couple I see around me but off of the model of Christ. Sure I will fall short and so will Nic but together we will always be moving forward, closer and closer to the picture Christ has set for us. For a husband should love his wife as Christ loves the Church.

I have been trying to relax today but there is still much to be done. Tomorrow my plan is to finish it all and then tomorrow night the best part of the preparation comes...NIC will arrive :) I have missed him a ton and we have not seen each other in almost 2 weeks. I am still slightly in denial that our wedding is on Friday, only 4 days away. But I believe when he gets here it will change my focus completely. I am almost nervous to see him and as in nervous I mean I DO have BUTTERFLIES. He is not just a great friend but he is my future husband, the love of my life, my leader and my confidant. He is all I always knew I should wait for and so much more (this is how I knew he would be my husband some day).

I have full confidence in our wedding. It is going to be so beautiful! For those of you coming I really hope you are able to experience the love Christ has for you during our ceremony. I believe so strongly that what happens in a marriage ceremony is so much more than the eyes can see. I hope your hearts are forever touched :)

It is 1 am and I need to go to bed. I am sorry I didnt blog yesteday, I fought a headache all day long and simply could not bring myself to look at this computer screen long enough to write a blog. I hope you are having a blessed week. I know I am!

Love you always,
Kira Vithalani

Saturday, July 9, 2011

6 days to go!

Well I think it would be a good idea for me to stop writing these right before I go to bed. I am very very tired so unfortunately this will probably be a short post. Maybe tomorrow I will take some time during the day and tell you all the gushy things I feel in my heart toward getting married. Tonight I simply do not have the energy.

But I am tired for good reason. My parents and I worked hard today!! We finished all the centerpieces! I have toiled with the idea of posting a picture of them because they are seriously GORGEOUS but I don't want to ruin the surprise for those of you that are coming to the wedding. I truly think we are going to have a beautiful wedding. Everything is going to look so good together! My mom and I sat on the floor all day and put together flower arrangements, cut stems, taped them all together and stuffed vases.

At the end of the day I was able to start working on the programs and I already have most of the cover pages printed out! We will finish those tomorrow! The seating arrangements are pretty much done and the final rental order was put in today. Before we know it the day will be here and everything is going to pay off! It has been a lot of hard work putting everything together and to be honest most the credit has to go to my parents! They have been awesome getting all of this together. Decorations are not my thing and I rarely have an opinion on it and they have really stepped it up and because of them I know that the wedding will be beyond beautiful. It is hard to even thing how I could ever repay them.

Tomorrow I am headed to church with Kendall and then I am back home to the workshop :) Tomorrow will be my last day of selling myself out to wedding things so I know I have to work hard to get everything done. Starting Monday the sun will be mixed into my days and the relaxing will begin!

Good Night for now! Everyday I get so much more excited! So far I am still sleeping good, pray for that to continue :)

Love you all!

Friday, July 8, 2011

7 days aka A WEEK!!!



Okay guys...we are finally rollin!

#1. I got to take my dress home today :) It is finally fixed. It is not in its original state but it still looks fabulous! I can not wait to debut it!! It fits perfect and we are finally good to go! Now I have to decide how to wear my hair! I want it down but it kinda looks better with the dress if it is UP. My mom and I are going to have a hair night sometime this weekend so we can figure out what we will do with our hair. Such a hard decision.

#2. We went to the venue for our last look around before the big day. We made sure everything was going to be able to go into place and made sure we had written down all the things we need to rent. It went really well and we had already had pretty much everything covered. The place is going to be really pretty, Im excited. Although, for some reason the venue has a skate park during the day and while we were there today there was a skate boarder practicing is tricks the whole time. More than anything I was just scared I was going to witness him brake a bone and I was pretty much going to flip out. But he didn't but he was limping by the time we left.

Other than these two things, a trip to the mall, a lunch with my parents, and a trip to Michaels (I think we have bought out the entire store so far) was all we did. At home we have been organizing things, I have been working on the seating charts and getting things in order. It is coming together slowly but surely! I feel really good about it but like I said I just have to keep truckin through it. Sunday was my goal to have most things done and it is only a couple days away.

PS. I have been living at the beach for 6 days now and have yet to see the ocean. I would say that is dedication to my wedding duties haha but next week I can guarantee I will see it at least once before the wedding :)

On another note I have had some requests to put some pictures of Piper up! She is growing fast and is as feisty as ever! She is still my sweetheart though and as cute as can be! Today we took her for a walk and she did SO good! She did not bark at a single dog and she just trotted along. On our way back to the house she pulled me all the way back to the house and knew exactly where she was going! She is only 11 weeks old but is the smartest lil thing. But here are some pictures of Piper that I took today...she was modeling for ya'll.






Look at the pretty sky on our walk...it was such a beautiful summer night!

This was piper after the walk...POOPED :)

Love you guys!

Kira Vithalani

Thursday, July 7, 2011

8 Days :)

Well I have good news...as every day goes by my STRESS decreases :) That is because more is getting done everyday and it gets more and more refreshing!

I actually did not sleep very well last night. I do not remember it being because of wedding stuff I think it was just a bad night of sleep but regardless I decided to sleep in! I slept till about 9:45 then I got up and played with little piper, who is not so little anymore.

After awhile I actually did not do any wedding things until the evening. I spent the entire day filling out a application for Watauga County Schools! Although, I would LOVE to be only focused on the wedding right now, that is not the case. I still am job searching. I would love to have one in place by the time I get married but there is no telling. But two student service opportunities arose in Watauga County since I left Boone. If you have heard me talk about my dreams lately you would know being in a full time student service position in a school is a dream of mine! So I had to stop myself from any wedding things sit on the couch with my laptop and get it done. I emailed the principal at WHS and he said he would put in a good word for me so we will see! On paper I know I am under qualified but I know my heart and capabilities and so does the Lord, so we'll just put it in his hands, what do you think?! :)

Well after my never ending application I chose a layout for the reception and then went back to the SEAMSTRESS!! And once again...I did NOT leave with my dress. But I have good news too...the dress DOES fit! FINALLY!! But there were some problems with the way the lady put the hooks on so she had to do a little more work on it. Remember when I said she should have never touched this part of the dress and it was perfect before?! Just saying :)

But after that we headed to the groomsmen hotel and took care of the rooms and then we sat down for a nice dinner downtown. It all in all was a good day. I still feel the pressure from a few things that I know need to get done immediately but I have not really had time for yet but I know tomorrow is another day of preparation and another day to get things done.

At this point in the game I am focused mainly on one thing....I am marrying my best friend in 8 days...EIGHT DAYS! It gives me butterflies just thinking about it. I am so unbelievably excited. I am spending time through out my days praying for my sweetheart. I know he is worried about me getting stressed out but I also worry about him too. I want him to be stress free and being able to relax in this time. We have such an adventure ahead of us and I know it is going to be so much greater than our understanding. And not to mention in 9 days we will land in the beautiful island of St. Lucia for a week of just the two of us, the blue waters, and the SUN!! Woohoo!

I am still in disbelief that the time is actually here and tomorrow marks a week till the wedding. I am so excited to see all my friends in one place and celebrate a love that is modeled by the love of Christ and I am excited that that love is the love I share with the most amazing man :)

I love you all to death! I can not wait to see you next weekend and I am so excited for all that is ahead tomorrow. My stress has decreased and my excitement is taking over again! Phew, that is a GOOD feeling!

Goodnight!

Kira Vithalani

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

9 Days to GO

Hey Friends!

Today was much better :) We have officially checked off our todo list of things to buy!! Yayy! I know more things will come up as we continue to organize but it still is so refreshing to know it is all taken care of!

I even took time in my day today to do something for me that was not wedding related! I had lunch with one of my best friends in the world, Jonathan Everette and his sweet girlfriend Keri! Jonny and I have been close since elementary school. I don't think he will read this blog so I will go ahead and say this but if he was a girl he'd totally be a bridesmaid haha.. Not sure if he would enjoy me saying something like that out loud haha...sorry buddy! But anyways lunch was wonderful and it was so great to catch up with the two of them! He was funny because during the lunch he just said..."Dude...you are going to cry so hard." with a worried look on his face.

Jonny and I are close enough for him to know that my tears do not have a lot of trouble flowing :) The thought of crying at my wedding is so funny. For some reason I have this strong believe that I will hold it together...anyone else that has spent more than a day with me would probably beg a differ. I am so scared I will look like a dinosaur face if I cry so much so I am truly determined to keep it under control! Wish me luck! I cry through every wedding I go to, going through my own will be tough!

Yesterday in my blog I mentioned my dress. Well long story short the seamstress took my dress in when it didn't need to be taken in and now it is way to little. I tried it on last Thursday and it definitely needed to be let out. I am not sure what she was thinking or if she just forgot what she was doing or what but regardless I left there with no frustration trusting she would get it right. THEN I came back on Tuesday...still to little. Then I went back today...STILL TOO LITTLE! Then she tried to do a quick fix on the dress and ended up cutting the fabric. Anyways I am going to stop here because I am trying to stay as calm as someone can be in this situation. Tomorrow I go back for the FOURTH time in a weeks period. Hopefully the 4th time is a charm since the 3rd time failed me.

Well...I miss Nic. I feel much less stressed today but I would still love to have him around. It is always good to have that person that helps you and reminds you to relax and that is Nic for me. Little Piper is missing him too. Although she is not the sweet little puppy I brought to Wilmington with me. She is fiesty for sure and completely full of herself haha. She will barely let me hold her at this point. She is too interested in everything around her than to stop for lovin. I miss her cuddles but I guess she has to go through her wild puppy stage. Yesterday she did catch a toad in the yard and it was pretty awesome! I love having her with me but it also make me wish Nic was here more. I like for the 3 of us to be together! We haven't had her long but it already feels like a little family :)

Well I am going to go to sleep now. Tomorrow is another day full of knocking things out. My goal is to mostly get everything done by Sunday and next week....RELAX!!! The sun is calling my name :)

Love you all,

Kira Vithalani

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

10 Days to Go

Okay everyone here it goes....

I am way too busy to blog but I am going to do it as my release and because I know I will be happy to have these last days written down. I am in Wilmington and I am officially preparing for the wedding. My mind is pretty much overloaded with all the things that are still left to do but my goal is to just keep trucking through it. Today was the day that my mom and I went around town to try to get done as much as we could and pick up all the last little things.

The tasks seem never ending but I know that they will end. Nic and I were on the phone earlier today and he asked me what my stress level was....at this point, I would say a 6. The good thing is that today was day one of finishing the last of the last things to do.

I can not believe I am getting married in ten days. It seems so soon. It excites me and makes me nervous all at the same time. I am beyond belief that it is finally here. They last days before I get to marry the man of my dreams. I get to put on my pretty white dress ( which at the moment does not fit me....a WHOLE nother story) and walk done the aisle truly glorifying the Lord and become one with the most wonderful man alive.

When I said I am nervous, I am not nervous about the gettin married part. I know that this is the man I am suppose to marry and I know that this is the time we are suppose to be married. Nothing in my life has ever felt so right and I can not wait for it all! I am nervous at my list of things to do and the wonder of if it will come together...which I know it will but until more things are complete and checked off the list the weight will still sort of be there.

I am not with Nic right now, he is still in Boone but I miss him like crazy! It would be easier with him by my side but I know that this time a part is going to be really unique for us. The anticipation is growing every day that I do not see him. When I see him again there will only be a few short days away until he will be my husband.Marriage has to be the world's sweetest thing and am so blessed to be on the edge of this great adventure.

The song I have in my spirit is so simple but so sweet for this time...I think most of my readers know it but if you dont you should look it up. Such a simple, sweet, everlasting, and ever played song about being prepared to be a vessel for the Lord.

Lord Prepare me to be a Sanctuary, Pure and Holy, Tried and True, With thanksgiving I'll be a living sanctuary for you.


I feel like I am in my time of preparation. Yes I am putting together centerpieces, searching for our last few things, spending too much time at the seamstress and florist but there is a deeper preparing going on. A preparing for the bride and groom to step into a sanctuary and have the Lord intertwine them. I am being prepared in my heart. Full of purity and holiness...this is how I desire to enter that center aisle. As a pure and holy, tried and true gift to my husband who is preparing the way for me.

I could go on and on but I have 9 more days to tell you my thoughts. That's right. You can follow me all the way up to the wedding on my blog. I promise to write everyday and to keep you updated on all that is ahead.

This is the time of my life thus far. In ten days no day will ever top it and no day will ever mean more to me than the day I get to marry Nic. I am beyond grateful!

If you have a moment say a prayer for us :)

Kira Vithalani
( I might as well sign my name in full while I still have it :) )