We've all been resistant to stepping out in faith. We've all let fear hold us back.
On this blog you'll find real life revelations and stories from an imperfect woman, wife, mother, and friend who lives with a daily desire to experience healing for where I've missed the mark, joy where I've felt lonely, to be fulfilled where I've felt without, and ultimately live the abundant and secure life that Christ has called me to. I want to live fearlessly for my God...trust in Him fully...and do what he's asked me without hesitation . I know I'm not alone and my hope is we can walk together, overcome our strongholds, and embrace a life unafraid as we walk with our Lord.


Sunday, October 30, 2011

Season of the Dreamer

"Too often our prayers revolve around asking God to reduce the odds in our lives. We want everything in our favor. But maybe God wants to stack the odds against us so we can experience a miracle of divine proportions. Maybe faith is trusting God no matter how impossible the odds are. Maybe our impossible situations are opportunities to experience a new dimension of God's glory." - Mark Batterson


For the many of you who are close to me know that I believe I am called to ministry. I believe that my hands and heart are built to serve the needy and the lost. I am doing that in my job right now as a school social worker but I know that I am built to take it one step further...I want to see people restored, mind-sets shifted to the ways of the Lord, and for people to come to know the Lord. It is so sweet to see the journey the Lord has me on and the seasons of preparation he is giving me. Yes I am not in ministry now (although my job is my ministry right) but what I learn everyday about people, the reality of their issues, and the ways to reach out to them is shaping me for when I am released into my place. I believe that is true and to me it is exciting!

Unfortunately, I am not so easy going and without anxiety about everything. Getting close to a year ago the Lord shifted my husbands heart from full time ministry to coaching. I never once questioned that what the Lord was saying was true. But the switch meant a few different things for us. We would be eventually be moving in order for Nic to increase at his profession and calling.

We are so grateful to spend our first year in Boone with our friends and our church family but it is only a matter of time, months, years, who knows, that we will venture off to our next destination.

I am a planner. And in the land of coaching you never quite know when or where you will go. This has had to create a shift in me :)But it is a funny thing because the Lord's daily placing dreams in me that at this time I can not attain.

Day after day I see more of what I want to do and built. It is hard because who knows where this life will take my husband and I and who knows how I will built what's in my heart. But I choose not to worry and choose to see it as a way for God to bless us.

The odds are against us. Moving locations isn't quite the best thing for building organizations. But God's got it :)And I choose not to fight the calling of my husband because it makes my dreams harder (so it seems to the natural eye) The desires of our hearts are the same and together we will see it all come together. To me it is so exciting. There is no telling for what's ahead (and trust me the natural me wants to have a heart-attack over that) but I know it is Good, because God is Good. And I trust Him.

There is nothing sweeter than knowing that Nic and I are called together and that our life will be a testimony to the Lord. Every move will be a piece of destiny and we will together touch what's around us and grow with every opportunity!

Sometimes what seems like the biggest problem or inconvenience is actually where our dreams reside. Choose to take the risk...choose to let God show His glory...

Love you all :)
Kira Cardwell
xoxo

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Broken Washer

Well if you are wondering how married life is going....it is WONDERFUL!! Nic and I are having a blast and it has really been an awesome start. We both work all day and I come home around 4 and wait for him to get home around 6:30 or 7. That would seem like a pretty awesome time for me to just relax and unwind get dinner ready and meet my loving husband at the door. Well....it's not quite that way all the time. I wonder where those few hours go as I come home have a snack, blink my eyes, and find myself RUSHING to get dinner finished haha.

I try to pick up the house everyday and keep it clean and organized but I am not sure if it is me or if most people have this problem but this crazy house seems to never stay clean haha. Nic and I are barely here so I have come to the conclusion that I must be a walking tornado. I am meaning to clean but somehow I make more of a mess and then don't have time to clean it up. Everyday I think to myself, I HAVE GOT TO MAKE A BETTER PLAN! There has to be a secret to keeping a house in order but I have yet to figure it out.

Our house is awesome though. It is definitely small but it is perfect. You can see pictures of it in a past blog. It is super cozy and is just big enough for the two of us, all our stuff, and our sweet dog Piper! Who is getting so big by the way, she is now over 50 pounds :) We said we wouldn't let her get on the couch but somehow every night when Nic and I are snuggled up on the couch she magically appears in our laps. We have yet to figure out how she does it ;)

I have once again found myself in a whirlwind as I have been home since 4 and am now trying to get the house picked up before I leave for church. And today I am almost positive that I broke the washing machine. Atleast, I do not think the smell of burnt rubber and it bouncing right out of the closet is a good sign. Oh the humor of wivey duties :) I know when Nic comes home everyday he's got to think to himself, "what has she been doing all day"...but there is nothing I can do but laugh as I have spend the last 2 hours cleaning things, doing dishes, folding laundry, giving my dog a bath, etc. and the house looks just the same or even worse than it did when I came home!

It is actually pretty funny :) And I enjoy the challenge of figuring this all out. I used to not care when my house got out of sorts and Nic could probably care less too. But there is something special about creating a place that feels like home for your man after he has had a full day of work!

One day I will get it under wraps...or maybe I won't haha...but until then I will continue to laugh at myself...

Love you guys! Pray for my washer!

Kira Cardwell