I am happy to say I am blogging from my porch in 70 degree sunny weather in the month of MARCH!! I know my Wilmington peeps will not be impressed but if you have lived in Boone you know that I am living a LUXURY today!
Well life has been good. I've just been working, working out (kinda), and hanging out with Nic and Piper. He has actually been out of town lately giving me some precious time with my friends as well.
My life is full of blessings but sometimes I can not help shake the feeling that something is missing. Growing up I had a woman in my life who directed me spiritually. She led my bible study from 7th grade until my senior year of High School and even into my first year of college she continued to pour into me. Her name was Connie Vigus and she was a God-loving woman who touched not only me but so many young girls and still does. After being established in Boone for over 5 years now I still feel like I am searching for that someone. I believe in being discipled and being poured into. I have tried to meet with some women in town and continue to when needed but no relationship has formed like I have hoped it to.
As I would allow this NEED take me over sometimes, especially recently, the Lord has graciously corrected me :) He is so good at that isn't he?
"And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19
If this burden I have had was a NEED I would have it! Now I do believe it is important that you have people to pour into your life and that it is a need but I do have that in so many wonderful people. I just do not have it the way that I DESIRE to have it. Which is different.
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4
God said to me... Kira it is not a NEED it is a DESIRE. And I will give you your desires. Surprise! God is smarter than me once again :) It is a desire of mine to have a EXTREMELY CLOSE relationship with a woman that I know could last a life time. Someone to encourage me, correct me, push me forward, and help me be a better daughter of Christ, and help me develop my dreams.
The moment I made it a need the moment I thought I couldn't survive without it and as soon as I thought I couldn't survive without it I felt like my life was not abundant.Causing me to dis-appreciate all of the wonderful things that I do have. What an interesting concept. It made me want to search my life for other unhealthy "needs" I may have. If I needed it I would have it. I have all that I need right here to live the life the Lord wants for me in this moment :)
Just a simple Revelation that helped me to get over yet one of life's many bumps! Praying for that relationship still, knowing God will provide it when it's needed most! Looking forward to it!
What do you think is a need that is really a desire in your own life? Don't let a "NEED" bring you down! God supplies all your NEEDS !!
Love you all always! Thanks for listening!
Kira Cardwell
